So I went to those parties on Saturday and it was quite fun. I was able to quickly drop by the one party I thought I was going to have to bail on. It was nice seeing everyone, remind them that I exist and that I'm alive. Lot of my friends have kids now so there were some kids at the first party. One of the kids admired my Pac-Man socks.

The rest of that party did some Molly and went to a club so I left. It was fortunate that the party I really wanted to go to was going on so I went there after. It was nice, a weird melancholy thinking it was the last one of those parties there. End of an era.

I was able to catch up with some of the people from the first party later on but they were so far gone it was a bit weird. Was nice to see them nonetheless.

I went and saw the new Joker movie on Sunday and that pretty much took over the whole day given that I woke up at like 12. It was a pretty entertaining movie. They really played up the Anonymous thing, with the images of protests and masks, civil unrest due to economic stress. The whole "self-actualization through the embrace of the shadow" thing they did with Joker's character was pretty cool and I felt a cathartic feeling after the movie ended. Walking home I was struck by a intense calm and a weird focus that I haven't felt in a long time.

I thought the movie was a kind of righteous revenge fantasy that had this nice release to it, a kind of angry imagining where the character of the Joker, who the audience can easily empathize with given his painfully awkward social skills, is able to make bad people pay for being rotten. This is also underscored displaying how difficult his life is finacially, but oddly enough that isn't really want gets the audience, I think. It's the raw violence he experiences that gets the audience on his side, which think it pretty interesting. There are two distinct beatdown scences that are constructed to get the audience on his side and once the character of the Joker had the audience's sympathy he is ablet to get away with creeepier and creepier stuff until he is straight murdering people on live TV in the end. The mob that forms around him in the end don't know about his personal hardships, and only read in what message they want as they riot.

It's an interesting movie in that way, glad I watched in the theaters. Prob going to try to watch it again once it hits a streaming platform.