So it's been another week in lockdown. The state just closed off this area from the rest of the country so the quarantine feels are way up. I played Left4Dead2 yesterday online with a friend and it was a perfect game for this time and place. The first loading screen has a little corner with public health posters and someone spraypainted in large letters: IT'S NOT A FLU.

The existential dread of it all comes in waves with me, I rarely, if ever, feel panic due to all this but then I start realizing that I'm in the middle of a qurantine zone and there's no way out. People infected with this disease are out and about, spreading it with no knowledge they are doing so. If there would be a massive spike in infections infrastructure might be affected. If I were to need medical help, it might not be there. The working from home bit is a break in routine and was cause to think about how serious this all is but since I still have a job and the lights are still on, the complete apocolyptic doomed feeling is still far off.

I'm seeing people on Facebook react in different ways. I've intentionally been staying away from it for a long time before this but I logged in over the weekend. I can see some people are making a show of trying to be helpful so the dread doesn't sink in, some people are quick vocal about their concerns. Generally people are partaking in small challenges online to get their spirits up. It would seem that most people are also not in full doomsday mode either. Things, although on the looing grim, are still actually pretty good. I've taken this time out to work on things I've been wanting to work on and now I don't have a nagging feeling that I'm missing out on things when I no-life. Hopefully I'll come out of this with more skills and a better understanding of all the things I've been putting off for the last year. Nothing like a crisis like this to get your priorities in order.